Category: Life

  • The enemy of mindfulness

    The enemy of mindfulness

    We find ourselves in a state of duress, or stress, when we lose sight of what we can influence, whi fee helpless in the face of everything that we think is out of our control.

    Whenever we’re faced with a problem, we either focus on mitigating the impact of the problem on us, or we focus on the opportunities to overcome the problem.

    When we convince ourselves that the problem is bigger than us, and we also believe that walking away from it is not an option, or possible, we slip into a victim state of mind that weighs us down.

    As a side note, whenever something appears impossible to resolve, it means that we have gaps in our understanding about what’s causing it to occur.

    At that point, we should set out to seek a better understanding of the problem, rather than persisting in trying to find an answer with the limited information that we have.

    This is the kind of thinking that needs to be applied when we’re faced with challenges in our lives.

    The most common reason for feeling overwhelmed by life is because the assumptions that we made over the years about our significance or our ability to influence important relationships have grown to become the truths by which we live.

    So we don’t even think of questioning those assumptions, despite circumstances having changed over the years, and more importantly, despite us having grown over the same period.

    Becoming aware of these assumptions that we make when trying to solve any problem is the first critical step towards searching for answers.

    But, mindfulness is needed to regain such perspective, and mindfulness is lost to the victim mindset.

    The victim mindset is one that leaves us feeling defensive, or defenseless. Reclaiming your ability to positively influence the outcomes of your life then becomes the important problem to solve.

    It always starts with you.

    #personalp

  • Generational assumptions

    Generational assumptions

    One of the most common incorrect assumptions we make in life is assuming that others treat us badly because of who we are, and not because of their own demons.

    This is especially true about how we feel about our relationship with one, or both of our parents.

    Without realising it, two critical outcomes result from this incorrect assumption.

    Firstly, we feel like victims in our lives because what we need from others always seems to be so elusive.

    And secondly, it distracts us from the reality of the struggles that the other person, including our parents, may be going through.

    When it comes to our parents, we easily lose sight of the human behind the role, until we eventually become parents and then judge them for not adequately preparing us for that role.

    That’s how we inevitably make the same mistakes that they made because we lost sight of who we are.

    If we connect with gratitude for who we are, and we focus on understanding, not judging why we may fall short from time to time, we’ll find it easier to connect with our humanness and in turn, with the humanness in others, rather than to judge them for not doing justice to their roles in our lives.

    Generational cycles are not broken by trying to be better than those who came before.

    It’s broken by seeking understanding of why they are the way that they are, so that through understanding them we can make better choices for ourselves.

    When you ‘heal’ from your past, don’t abandon those who didn’t have more to give.

    Treat them with the empathy and compassion that has been lacking in their lives so that they may also feel like significant humans who are not only valued for the role that they are expected to play in the lives of those around them.

    This will improve our relationship with them, which in turn will improve the quality of life that we pass on to the next generation.

    It always starts with you.

  • Cyclical abuse

    Cyclical abuse

    At first, we remain in a bad relationship because we truly believe in the sincerity of the claims of our partner to want to improve, or to overcome what they’re struggling with.

    After some time, if we’re not careful, our inability to get them to follow through will convince us that we’re not a good enough reason for them to be better.

    When that continues for long enough, we begin to doubt our ability to be enough for anyone else, and thus find ourselves trapped in a cycle that we’re unintentionally sustaining.

    Some may claim that they stay because it’s their way of expressing unconditional love.

    Unconditional love, if it ever exists, is the sacrifice of one in favour of another. When you sacrifice yourself to compensate for the bad behaviour of someone else, that’s not love, that’s self loathing.

    If you don’t love yourself, loving another becomes a cry for significance or acceptance, and love has nothing to do with it.

    More importantly though, the choice of how to respond to bad or abusive behaviour is not binary. It’s not just about staying or leaving.

    Between those two choices lies a number of ways to potentially break cycles of abuse, all of which requires a better understanding of why the abusive behaviour is the way in which the other person is trying to feel significant, or to rage at an injustice done to them in the past.

    By understanding what drives their behaviour, we allow ourselves to see the human struggle behind the behaviour, rather than to judge the entirety of the human by their behaviour.

    But this is only possible when we don’t feel inadequate about who we are in that situation.

    A healthy self-esteem is therefore at the heart of truly breaking cycles of abuse, otherwise we may exit that situation, but we’re likely to be attracted to yet another cycle of abuse in our search for significance.

    It always starts with you.

  • Allow them to learn

    Allow them to learn

    Sometimes, out of concern, we try to protect those we care about from mistakes that they are inclined to make.

    We become the buffer between their bad decisions and the consequences thereof, so that they don’t find themselves in harm’s way.

    This show of concern or compassion is good, as long as it doesn’t become their crutch in life, or ours.

    If we’re not careful, we may give them reason to believe that they’ll always have a soft landing, or someone to bail them out.

    By protecting them from the consequences of their decisions, you also prevent them from growing to appreciate why they should trust your advice and support.

    However, choose carefully when to allow them to fall, because you don’t want to set yourself up for regret if there are long term consequences.

    Focus on opportunities where the outcome or the impact can be contained or minimised.

    The point is to allow them to learn from their decision making process, and not to maliciously prove a point that they should trust you more.

    Always be focused on the benefit that you want to create for them, and not on the satisfaction that you need to feel when you point out that you were right.

    Connect with compassion, not malice or bitterness.

    This is especially true for parenting teens who are more inclined to demand control of decisions in their lives.

    Not everything that they get wrong will hound them for the rest of their lives, so choose instances to teach such lessons based on the effort required for them to make right what they got wrong.

    And sometimes, you’ll be surprised at how what you thought you needed to protect them from was actually beneficial for their growth.

  • A brain dump

    A brain dump

    Optimism is not always enough. It helps, but sometimes, I just want things to go easy for a bit. If I knew that a single moment of trusting someone could lead to a lifetime of struggle, I would not have been so trusting, or at least not so generous with my trust.

    But spilled milk and water under bridges offer no comfort. They only offer resolve. The resolve to move on rather than to stare pointlessly at the mishaps of my life. So I move on, each time with hope and optimism, each time having the wind knocked out of my sails, constantly reminded of how much easier it would be if only…if only they played their part..or they appreciated what they had…or they gave more and didn’t just take all the time…or…if only they honoured their trust, as much as I try to honour mine.

    But that’s when I’m reminded of the poison of self-pity. That loathsome indulgence of focusing on how bad I have it, while growing bitter at those who consciously and unknowingly contribute towards my straitened state. Sometimes deliberately, but most times obliviously.

    The trials of life are visited on those who are most aware of the human struggle of those around them. It compels one to be more gracious, more understanding, and more forgiving towards the shortcomings of those who do not do their fair share in our lives. But principle dictates that we do not abandon our station because in so doing, we contribute towards that very condition of theirs that subsequently weighs us down. That’s how we become part of the problem, when we abandon the burden of being part of the solution.

    The relentless charge of life felt exciting in youth, but exhausting in my later years. There are days when I feel hopeful and passionate, with purpose and ambition. And there are days when I feel like remembering to hydrate is a life-sucking chore. The only thing that changes between the two is my indulgence in self-pity, or in my fixation on what is owed to me.

    At such times, I remind myself that this world was created for respite, not for justice. What we give, will rarely be received in equal measure. Therefore, we must find a joy other than the expression of gratitude, or reciprocation, if we hope to sustain the very essence that breathes life into our waking hours.

    It is the gratitude of who I am that I lose sight of, before the challenges begin to take their toll on me. I’m most weighed down when I look longingly at a significant other, waiting for a sign of sincere gratitude for, or at the least, understanding of what it takes for me to persevere beyond what has already transpired in my life. It is that pause for such validation that begins the slip into that soulless space of ingratitude, and of being left feeling wanting after exhausting my spirit in the service of those around me.

    I think death will approach when picking myself up from that space will feel like a trial too many, or an investment too daunting in hope that is forever fleeting. On the balance, I am human, and I am needy of that balance that is only found in being appreciated by another. Not by any other, but by one who sees me, and not the tokens of who I am. One who sees the scars and bruises that tear at my being, each time I rise to face another round of brutal conflict with my demons, and the demons of those around me. It is only the loving gaze of one who sees all this of me, and more, that will ever set the scales in balance for this life to feel like a trial worth overcoming.

    In the absence of such an embrace, it all feels dutifully empty. Without purpose beyond the belief that there is purpose in it. And the only motivation to persevere being the belief in the value of what I wish to create. Not even for the awaiting reward of what I’m doing. Because, if I believe the promise of my Lord to be true, to be rewarded for even an atom’s worth of good that I may do, then doing it with the reward in mind would be doubting the promise of my Lord.

    I therefore act with conviction when I’m grateful for my ability to create value in the lives of those I meet, knowing that the One who blessed me with this ability, is more generous than any reward that I may expect in return.

    Perhaps this is the reminder that I need to push on when I feel weighed down. It is the transactional life that steals our passion long before the trial itself. I must take more time to reflect on how transactional my life has become.

  • Empty apologies

    Empty apologies

    “Hey, I apologised. If you don’t accept my apology, that’s your problem, not mine.”

    Did someone say this to you after offending you or treating you badly?

    Maybe you felt you had reason to say it to someone else that rejected your apology?

    The moment we demand that our apology must be enough, we’re not interested in the hurt or offence that we caused, nor the trust that we may have damaged. We’re only interested in preventing the other person from having reason to be displeased with us.

    As we know, apologies mean nothing without sincere remorse, or a change in behaviour.

    And if we have sincere remorse about what we did, we won’t expect others to be OK with what happened just because we think they should be OK.

    We’ll focus on sincerely understanding why it affected, or continues to affect them, and we’ll put in the effort to reestablish the trust that we broke or tainted.

    If we don’t, it means that we’re stuck in self-pity rather than appreciating the impact that we have in the lives of those around us.

    This is yet another way in which self-pity prevents us from realising our significance to others, and vice versa, because we’re so fixated on how bad we have it, or how we feel unappreciated, that we lose sight of how much we take them for granted.

    It always starts with you.




  • Whose war are you fighting?

    Whose war are you fighting?

    When someone is at war within themselves, it’s unlikely that they will realise it.

    If you’re not aware of the impact that they have on you, you’ll think that their frustration or anger is directed at you, when it’s really just their need to release the tension that they feel within.

    Let the above cycle play out for long enough, and you’ll find yourself at war with yourself, wondering why you can never be enough for them.

    And then you become the one at ease within yourself, and cause turmoil in the lives of others.

    While your instinct, at some point, will convince you that you need to get out, you need to step back and consider why it is that someone else’s internal war affects you the way that it does.

    If you don’t figure this part out, the risk of the cycle repeating itself in your next relationship, for entirely different reasons, is very high.

    This is how old problems that are unresolved or not understood, become triggers in new relationships.

    More importantly, by getting caught up in the turmoil of your partner’s war within themselves, it becomes impossible for you to help them to realise that they’re raging at the wrong target, if indeed they should be raging at all.

    That’s why self-awareness is so important. Without it, not only can you not protect yourself from the turmoil around you, but you also won’t be of much use to significant others around you.

    We all lose sight of who we are at some point, that’s why it’s pointless keeping score about who was there for whom, or who needs to change first, or what we need before we’re willing to make the effort. Because when we lose ourselves, it will not help us if others start keeping score in that way either.

    It always starts with you.

    Own Your Life.

  • Parents owning it

    Parents owning it

    When we find cause for concern about a specific generation of humans, we must look to the generation before them for answers if we hope to address more than the symptoms of what is wrong.

    None of us raised ourselves. Similarly, the troubled youth and many adults that we see struggling to make a good life did not raise themselves.

    Understanding what was lacking in their upbringing is not shifting blame or justifying their behaviour.

    Instead, it’s needed if we hope to break the cycle of generational trauma, or dysfunction that often seems to run in the gene pool of a given family unit.

    It’s not the genes that are defective, but the common character traits and cultural inclinations that respond to the pressures of life in the same way that creates similar outcomes in each member’s life.

    We cannot give what we don’t have, at least not until we’ve become aware of what we don’t have, so that we may finally acquire it through deliberate and conscious effort.

    Until we reach such a level of self-awareness and understanding, we’ll keep chasing ghosts, or blaming the youth for being ungrateful or rebellious, or deliberately deviant.

    If we didn’t acquire a healthy self-esteem during our childhood, we’ll likely spend most of our life struggling to feel significant, and behaving badly in the process.

    Arts how it becomes that much more difficult for us to raise children with a healthy self-esteem. And the same applies to our parents when they raised us, and so on.

    Parents who are struggling with the behaviour of their children need to reflect on their own feelings of self-worth without attaching shame to it.

    It’s only in connecting with our own humanness that we’ll ever be able to connect with the humanness of others, especially our children.

    It always starts with you.