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  • Are you losing yourself?

    Are you losing yourself?

    It’s easy to lose yourself if you don’t really know who you are, or who you want to be in a given moment.

    Far too often, we demand a specific response from others because of what we need, not because of what we are hoping to achieve, or create.

    Do we want to create peace, understanding, harmony, affection, and a sense of belonging?

    Or do we need to get all those things from others?

    We cannot give what we don’t have.

    When we lack some or all of that within ourselves, we’ll respond in kind towards those who also don’t have that within themselves.

    That’s how we lose ourselves to the situation in which we find ourselves, and also how we become part of the problem, instead of uplifting those who need it most.

    It always starts with you.

    You either feed the cycle of dysfunction or harshness around you, or you disrupt it by rising above it.

    The choice you make reflects how you feel about yourself long before it reflects how others feel about you.

    Own Your Life.

  • Understand. Then accept. Then forgive.

    Understand. Then accept. Then forgive.

    I see so many who claim to have forgiven, but are still weighed down by what was done to them.

    There’s an important difference between forgiving as a means to forego punishing someone or demanding retribution, versus forgiving because you truly understand why someone behaved badly.

    When that understanding is lacking, it makes it impossible to accept what they did, because we’ll never be able to reconcile why they did it.

    Without understanding why, acceptance becomes superficial, and forgiveness becomes a token gesture.

    Forgive and forget is a great notion of noble intent that often lacks any true resolution or peace.

    If you want that forgiveness to carry with it the promise of peace beyond that experience, you must seek to understand, without judgement, why someone treated you badly, or committed a dastardly deed.

    It’s through that understanding that we’ll discover that their actions were more about their demons, than it was about how they felt about us.

    If our sense of significance or self-worth was defined by their validation of who we are, even understanding won’t give us that peace.

    But, that’s on us. Not on them. We’re responsible for how we feel about ourselves. And no amount of forgiveness will change that.

    It always starts with you.

  • The weight of life

    The weight of life

    How often do we judge others for being moody just because they’re easily annoyed at things that don’t go smoothly for them?

    How often do others judge us for the same thing?

    Moodiness is most often our way of communicating that we’re unhappy about repeatedly being taken for granted, when we’re tired of communicating that we’re tired of being taken for granted. Right?

    When we want to believe that someone cares, we won’t always tell them what we need, because then we’re never certain if they respond out of sincere care or obligation.

    That’s why we choose ‘moodiness’ to express our dissatisfaction about what’s troubling us, or what we’re not getting from them.

    Just don’t lose yourself to those moods.

    Sometimes people may be too distracted by their own pressures in life, and if you wait for them to notice that you’re unhappy, you may assume that they don’t care when in fact, they were simply distracted.

    If you care about them, you’ll find a way to get their attention without judging them to be insensitive or uncaring.

    It’s all about understanding.

    When we’re not getting what we need, it doesn’t mean that we should stop giving what we’ve got.

    It always starts with you.

  • Your world. Your worries.

    Your world. Your worries.

    I walked on the lawn with bare feet the other day.

    For a moment my senses were teased and I felt grounded.

    I gazed around the garden and looked past the sprouting indigenous trees, and instead noticed the chores left unfinished, or new ones that begged for my attention.

    I walked on and paid little attention to them because the lawn felt so good beneath my feet.

    In that moment I knew that even the reality of this world and all its worries could not rob me of the fascination of that moment.

    But no sooner had that thought occurred that I found myself robbing myself of that which the world was unable to take from me.

    That’s when I realised that I willingly give up that peace, or that moment of beauty, when I allow myself or others to contaminate it by worrying about that which I can’t change or influence in that very moment.

    The most common cause of such worry is self-pity, feverish self-pity is driven by our belief that no one cares enough to share our load, or consider our needs.

    Self-pity is driven by ingratitude.

    That ingratitude is not only for what others contribute, in their own way, towards our lives, but especially ingratitude for how much value we’re able to contribute towards others if we didn’t worry about getting credit for it.

    Focus on the value that you can create in the world around you, and your gratitude for who you are will create the peace in your heart that you’re so desperately in need of.

    It always starts with you.


  • Don’t test the ones you love. Love them.

    Don’t test the ones you love. Love them.

    Ever find that despite your best efforts, someone close to you just never appreciates what you do for them?

    Ever feel like you’re having to fulfil their expectations in detail about how to do something the way that they want you to do it before they are satisfied with you?

    Even then, when you do that thing exactly the way they wanted you to, they then question your sincerity.

    “You only did it because I asked you to!”

    Does that sound familiar?

    Damned if you do and damned if you don’t.

    The reason that they treat us that way, or even why we may treat others in that way is not because we’re questioning their sincerity, it’s because we doubt our significance to them.

    When we feel insignificant, we test others, often in passive aggressive ways, to see if we’re really important to them.

    The only reason we test them is because we don’t appreciate them. And then we hold them responsible for how we don’t appreciate ourselves either. That’s why we test them.

    When we look for kindness to be packaged in a specific way, we lose sight of the kindness or affection that they offer of their own accord, in their own way.

    When we expect others to express their appreciation, or affection towards us in a specific way, we not only diminish who they are, we also show ingratitude for their sincere efforts towards us.

    Then, when they pull away because they feel unappreciated, or taken for granted, or worse, because they feel invisible, we convince ourselves that we were right about their insincerity to begin with.

    Self-loathing is the root of most relationship problems.

    Don’t hold your partner or significant others responsible for how you feel about yourself.

    If you don’t appreciate who you are, you give others permission to take you for granted.

    It always starts with you.


  • The gift of who you are

    The gift of who you are

    It’s human to feel fatigued or despondent.

    But, it’s not human to give up.

    We’re wired to persevere. To overcome. To prevail. To improve what we have around us.

    When we feel oppressed in our efforts to achieve these ends, we either grow despondent, or we grow aggressive.

    Both those reactions are an indication that we’ve lost sight of the gift of who we are.

    When we feel burdened, we’re focused on whether our efforts will be appreciated, accepted, respected, or rejected, etc.

    That means that we’re more focused on being significant in that moment, or in that relationship, rather than connecting with the value of what brings us joy that we want others to experience with us.

    But, just like a gift, if we buy something for someone because we like it, without any concern about what they think of it, then we’re not really buying that gift for them, are we?

    Similarly, when we find joy in living life a certain way, or connecting with an experience in a certain way, and we want to share that with others, our focus must be on how do we connect them to that experience. Not on whether they appreciate our efforts or trust our opinion about why that experience is important.

    In other words, if your gift to someone is sincere, you don’t force them to like it. You put in the time and effort to understand what and how they would experience something they love, and try to gift it to them in that way. After all, it’s for them.

    We find joy in connecting with others in that way.

    The same must be true about offering the best of who you are to those around you.

    Of course, you need to first appreciate who you are before you’ll be able to connect others to that joy within you that you want them to experience with you.

    So, as always, the question is simple. Do you know yourself well enough to appreciate the gift that you hold within?

    It always starts with you.

  • Judge, as you would like to be judged

    Judge, as you would like to be judged

    When we behave badly, we pacify ourselves by focusing on what we intended, or why it was understandable for us to behave that way.

    When others treat us badly, we’re more inclined to assume that it is a true reflection of how little we mean to them, or how malicious they are.

    The moment we judge someone else’s intentions to be bad without knowing for certain what they intended, we’re projecting our value system on them, and then holding them accountable for it.

    Crazy, right?

    When we assume the worst of someone, it’s because we are assuming what would have driven us to behave that way, and then believing that it must be true for them as well.

    Such assumptions prevent us from reaching understanding because it results in us expecting others to defend what we insist is true about them, rather than giving them the opportunity to explain themselves.

    We judge others as harshly or as kindly as we judge ourselves. That’s assuming that we’re honest with ourselves.

    When we’re dishonest with ourselves, we’ll be inconsistent in how we judge others.

    Those whose favour we want, we’ll judge kindly. While those who cannot serve our needs, we’ll judge harshly.

    That’s how we lose ourselves to our need for validation.

    It always starts with you.

  • The insincerity of self-loathing

    The insincerity of self-loathing

    As always, you cannot give what you don’t have.

    You can’t give someone a smile if you don’t have one yourself.

    Similarly, you cannot appreciate what you’re ungrateful for.

    If you take yourself for granted, any appreciation that you express towards others is based on you wanting them to feel appreciated the way that you want to feel appreciated.

    It’s about wanting them to have something that you believe you don’t have.

    As magnanimous or noble as that seems, it’s a transaction.

    It’s a judgement.

    It’s insincere.

    It’s manipulation.

    Is there some good in it? Definitely. Because there is nothing so bad that there is no good in it.

    But, it still means that the gratitude you express is hollow, and the one you hope to give reason to feel appreciated will eventually sense that emptiness of your sentiment.

    It’s only when we truly and meaningfully connect with the value that we hold as humans, that we are able to recognise and connect with that value in others.

    Until that point, all we’ll see is judgement and comparison about who has more than us, who deserves more, who we want must appreciate us, and so on.

    Our expression of affection and gratitude becomes transactional because we want to be seen a certain way, or thought of in a certain way.

    That’s not sincere appreciation. That’s transacting for significance.

    The question is, how many of us know ourselves well enough to truly appreciate who we are, or do we only see ourselves as a means to an end for others?

    How many of us are living martyrs?

    It always starts with you.