Category: Self Worth

  • Cutting your nose to spite your face?

    Cutting your nose to spite your face?

    Spite is that thing we do when we don’t want to appear needy or dependant on others for something that we need from them.

    Like needing attention or validation, but not wanting to appear desperate.

    If we feel valued, we’ll have a reasonable discussion without feeling as if it’s going to make us appear weak.

    If we don’t feel valued, and we don’t want to appear vulnerable or needy with that person, we’ll express our dissatisfaction through behaving in a way that is deliberately unpleasant or spiteful about something that we know the other person doesn’t appreciate.

    Either way, spite is driven by our need to be appreciated by someone who is important to us, while we judge ourselves for being weak by needing them to make us feel good.

    So when someone is being spiteful, consider in what way they may think you took them for granted. But also consider how weak they feel for needing your appreciation in the first place.

    You can either feel burdened with the responsibility of having to make them feel better about themselves, or you can focus on the fact that you’re important enough for them to need your validation or affection.

    But, as always, you can’t give what you don’t have.

    So if you don’t feel secure about who you are, you’re likely to focus on feeling burdened by their need for validation from you, resulting in you returning the favour of spite because you also don’t want to appear weak to them.

    Thus, a juvenile cycle of tit-for-tat ensues, as each partner tests the resolve of the other to see who is going to give in first, while both lose sight of how much life is being wasted in the process.

    Who breaks the cycle?

    Who is responsible for your feelings of weakness or inadequacy?

    As always, it starts with you.

    Own Your Life.

  • What are you taking from life?

    What are you taking from life?

    Our efforts towards others is what we give.

    How they receive and reciprocate those efforts is what we get.

    But what we take from that exchange is often lost to the emotional experience that lasts long after the moment has passed.

    What we take is OUR interpretation of what was behind the way that someone responded to our efforts towards them.

    It’s the assumptions that we make, and the signs we look for to confirm our assumptions to be true, that define what we take from others.

    Those assumptions are most often due to what we believe to be our value to them. It’s our assumption of how much they value us.

    It doesn’t mean that what we assume to be true is a reflection of how they truly value us.

    That’s when we become distracted by how our efforts are validated, rather than focusing on what value we want to create in that moment with them.

    The healthier our self-esteem, the kinder we’ll be towards them and ourselves with the assumptions that we make.

    Otherwise, if we don’t our own value, we’ll assume that their less-than-enthusiastic reaction towards us is because of who we are, and not because of what they may be grappling with in their own self-worth.

    When two unhealthy self-esteems collide, innocent beings are hurt, and a lifetime of pain is nurtured.

    Break the cycle by owning your self-worth, so that you don’t hold others accountable for how you feel about yourself.

    It always starts with you.



  • Your world. Your worries.

    Your world. Your worries.

    I walked on the lawn with bare feet the other day.

    For a moment my senses were teased and I felt grounded.

    I gazed around the garden and looked past the sprouting indigenous trees, and instead noticed the chores left unfinished, or new ones that begged for my attention.

    I walked on and paid little attention to them because the lawn felt so good beneath my feet.

    In that moment I knew that even the reality of this world and all its worries could not rob me of the fascination of that moment.

    But no sooner had that thought occurred that I found myself robbing myself of that which the world was unable to take from me.

    That’s when I realised that I willingly give up that peace, or that moment of beauty, when I allow myself or others to contaminate it by worrying about that which I can’t change or influence in that very moment.

    The most common cause of such worry is self-pity, feverish self-pity is driven by our belief that no one cares enough to share our load, or consider our needs.

    Self-pity is driven by ingratitude.

    That ingratitude is not only for what others contribute, in their own way, towards our lives, but especially ingratitude for how much value we’re able to contribute towards others if we didn’t worry about getting credit for it.

    Focus on the value that you can create in the world around you, and your gratitude for who you are will create the peace in your heart that you’re so desperately in need of.

    It always starts with you.


  • Don’t test the ones you love. Love them.

    Don’t test the ones you love. Love them.

    Ever find that despite your best efforts, someone close to you just never appreciates what you do for them?

    Ever feel like you’re having to fulfil their expectations in detail about how to do something the way that they want you to do it before they are satisfied with you?

    Even then, when you do that thing exactly the way they wanted you to, they then question your sincerity.

    “You only did it because I asked you to!”

    Does that sound familiar?

    Damned if you do and damned if you don’t.

    The reason that they treat us that way, or even why we may treat others in that way is not because we’re questioning their sincerity, it’s because we doubt our significance to them.

    When we feel insignificant, we test others, often in passive aggressive ways, to see if we’re really important to them.

    The only reason we test them is because we don’t appreciate them. And then we hold them responsible for how we don’t appreciate ourselves either. That’s why we test them.

    When we look for kindness to be packaged in a specific way, we lose sight of the kindness or affection that they offer of their own accord, in their own way.

    When we expect others to express their appreciation, or affection towards us in a specific way, we not only diminish who they are, we also show ingratitude for their sincere efforts towards us.

    Then, when they pull away because they feel unappreciated, or taken for granted, or worse, because they feel invisible, we convince ourselves that we were right about their insincerity to begin with.

    Self-loathing is the root of most relationship problems.

    Don’t hold your partner or significant others responsible for how you feel about yourself.

    If you don’t appreciate who you are, you give others permission to take you for granted.

    It always starts with you.


  • The gift of who you are

    The gift of who you are

    It’s human to feel fatigued or despondent.

    But, it’s not human to give up.

    We’re wired to persevere. To overcome. To prevail. To improve what we have around us.

    When we feel oppressed in our efforts to achieve these ends, we either grow despondent, or we grow aggressive.

    Both those reactions are an indication that we’ve lost sight of the gift of who we are.

    When we feel burdened, we’re focused on whether our efforts will be appreciated, accepted, respected, or rejected, etc.

    That means that we’re more focused on being significant in that moment, or in that relationship, rather than connecting with the value of what brings us joy that we want others to experience with us.

    But, just like a gift, if we buy something for someone because we like it, without any concern about what they think of it, then we’re not really buying that gift for them, are we?

    Similarly, when we find joy in living life a certain way, or connecting with an experience in a certain way, and we want to share that with others, our focus must be on how do we connect them to that experience. Not on whether they appreciate our efforts or trust our opinion about why that experience is important.

    In other words, if your gift to someone is sincere, you don’t force them to like it. You put in the time and effort to understand what and how they would experience something they love, and try to gift it to them in that way. After all, it’s for them.

    We find joy in connecting with others in that way.

    The same must be true about offering the best of who you are to those around you.

    Of course, you need to first appreciate who you are before you’ll be able to connect others to that joy within you that you want them to experience with you.

    So, as always, the question is simple. Do you know yourself well enough to appreciate the gift that you hold within?

    It always starts with you.

  • The insincerity of self-loathing

    The insincerity of self-loathing

    As always, you cannot give what you don’t have.

    You can’t give someone a smile if you don’t have one yourself.

    Similarly, you cannot appreciate what you’re ungrateful for.

    If you take yourself for granted, any appreciation that you express towards others is based on you wanting them to feel appreciated the way that you want to feel appreciated.

    It’s about wanting them to have something that you believe you don’t have.

    As magnanimous or noble as that seems, it’s a transaction.

    It’s a judgement.

    It’s insincere.

    It’s manipulation.

    Is there some good in it? Definitely. Because there is nothing so bad that there is no good in it.

    But, it still means that the gratitude you express is hollow, and the one you hope to give reason to feel appreciated will eventually sense that emptiness of your sentiment.

    It’s only when we truly and meaningfully connect with the value that we hold as humans, that we are able to recognise and connect with that value in others.

    Until that point, all we’ll see is judgement and comparison about who has more than us, who deserves more, who we want must appreciate us, and so on.

    Our expression of affection and gratitude becomes transactional because we want to be seen a certain way, or thought of in a certain way.

    That’s not sincere appreciation. That’s transacting for significance.

    The question is, how many of us know ourselves well enough to truly appreciate who we are, or do we only see ourselves as a means to an end for others?

    How many of us are living martyrs?

    It always starts with you.

  • Faith is always there

    Faith is always there

    Faith is often associated with spirituality, or religion.

    But faith plays a role in our lives in ways we easily lose sight of.

    When we trust someone, we have faith in them to do the right thing.

    When we mistrust someone, we have reason to fear that they’ll do the wrong thing, meaning that we have more faith in them not doing the right thing.

    Faith is always at play the moment we consider what we need from the next moment, the next day, or the next encounter with someone about something important.

    If we lose sight of what we’re investing our faith in, we’ll focus on responding to our fear about the outcome potentially not being achieved, and our efforts will be driven towards mitigating the risk of that outcome.

    Our faith from a spirituality perspective is our fall back position for when our faith in others may be betrayed.

    But, if we only rely on our fall back position, we’ll prevent ourselves from having faith in those around us, giving them little reason to believe that we appreciate or trust them.

    That’s how we create distance between ourselves and others, and often, use that as a reason to believe that we were right in not trusting them.

    Meanwhile, they didn’t feel trusted. That’s why they created distance between them and us.

    Being true to yourself despite the risk of being disappointed when you invest your faith or time in others, is what becomes possible when you truly connect with the value of who you are, and what you are passionate about leaving as your legacy in the lives of those around you.

    When self-doubt creeps in, we withdraw our withhold or contribution, because we need others to validate our significance before we believe in ourselves.

    It always starts with you. Own your life.

  • Home breakers

    Home breakers

    Those who live with the expectation of receiving what they need, rather than putting in the effort to create it with their own heart and hands, will take for granted that which others have exhausted themselves building.

    Like a home. There are too many who expect to feel at home because of their material contribution, but don’t know what it takes to create that homely feeling.

    Providing the house doesn’t make it a home. Nor does cleaning the house make it a home.

    Buying the groceries doesn’t make an endearing family meal. Nor does cooking it.

    What connects our efforts with the hearts of those around us is not in the material or dutiful contribution that we make. It’s in the love and appreciation that accompanies how we treat ourselves and them, that connects our hearts and creates a home.

    Those who were raised in an environment where their responsibility was more important than their emotional needs will find it easier to judge the quality of their relationships based on what they get from it, rather than how they’re loved or appreciated.

    True love and appreciation will automatically result in wanting to create that homely feeling, or that endearing family meal.

    Without that love and appreciation, love becomes a transaction, and a check list of things to do so that we avoid blame when things go wrong.

    The better we are at that check list, the more we believe we’re truly loving and appreciating life. Until we stop getting what we need.

    But, as always, you can’t give what you don’t have.

    If you treat yourself like a commodity, your affection for others will be based on the fear of not having them around, or not getting what you need from them.

    Who they are and what they need will not feature at all. Sadly, you probably won’t even be aware of it when you’re in that state.

    That’s why self awareness is so important. Because it always, always starts with you.