You can’t wish away your struggle

Wishing it's a sunny day when it's raining is not going to make the sun come out.Therefore, leaving your umbrella behind is an act of foolishness, not optimism.A positive mindset can often lead us into delusional states.When our overbearing sense of deliberate positivity doesn't produce results, it crushes our spirit even more than before we [...]

My echo chamber

For what feels like an eternity, I've been grappling with whether I have anything of substance to share beyond my first novel. Will it be an indulgent rant of self-pity, or will it honour the human struggle? Am I invested in it the way I was with the first novel? Or is the tedious repetition [...]

That empty bench…

The saddest scene for me has always been the abandoned park bench.It echoes with profound intensity the pervasive isolation that too many experience, but too few reveal.There is a shame that is carried upon the broken wings of abandonment that anchors us in that space between wanting to create beauty in this world, while believing [...]

Take stock, and reconnect

Stepping back and taking stock requires more than just an arrest of the ego.It requires a desire to return to a point of sincerity and authenticity in our lives when we were filled with hope about the future, after finding ourselves filled with a longing for the past instead.Arresting the ego becomes easier if we [...]

A brain dump

Some find solace as the years progress. Some find love. Some find an emptiness where space was once held in hope for a significant other. My contemplations of which applies to me hold no sway any longer. Writing this post creates a delusion of its own. Although it could be interpreted as gratitude or reflection [...]

Exhale

Breathing becomes laboured when I'm not sure if I want to hold something in, or let it out. Expressing my disappointment at the events that appear to be in an incessant loop feels like an indulgence in futility. I've expressed such disappointment before, yet, here we are. Staring each other in the face again. The [...]