Is it possible to be so in sync with another’s heart that even their hormonal imbalances can affect your own emotions? Most of my life I’ve focused on understanding the human psyche better, but i didn’t realise that my sense of compassion would predispose me to empathising more than I should with most of them…it’s only recently that I’ve been able to remain objective in the face of deep concern for another’s well being, without allowing myself to be caught up in the process of helping them out of their mire. However, this is not the case all the time…so maybe it would be more accurate if I said that only more recently have I been able to selectively remain objective, because as much as I try to walk away from a heart that is warm and engaging and so true to my own, I’m caught in a web of emotion that holds me ever more tight each time I try to break away…so I’ve finally accepted that resistance is futile…past the point of no return so much so that if I were to turn back now, I’d probably end up being more damaged than if the road had come to an abrupt end…neither of the two options being what I want, but always threatening to be realised.
But the fool in me is hopeful that what I’ve yearned for all my life may yet be realised in this lifetime, even if only in part…but a significant part at that. And this is what gives me reason, more than anything else, to rise each morning and face another day because hope is still alive and morbidity holds no attraction.